odara:

modiva:

I’m always here for the people I care for, I’d go above and beyond for them. Nobody ever cares enough to look past my sometimes fake smile to ask what’s wrong, even though 9 times out of ten I’ll end up saying “nothing, I’m fine” at least I’ll know that you care enough to ask. It’s okay though. I find peace and joy in helping people. Even though I’m a great actress and can conceal my feelings, low key sometimes I wish someone would catch the rare moments where I become vulnerable and just can’t conceal them as much as I try. Or even just a hug will be great. I REALLY hope God sends me someone who isn’t selfish. Someone who will give me genuine hugs and rub my back because he/she knows how much I love that. I can never open up to anyone… But it’ll be nice to have a shoulder to just lean on and let my tears speak volume. There are things I’ve been through that I never speak about. I just kind of push it under the rug and sometimes it peeks out and I break. I’m only human, we break sometimes right? I’m so good to people. I too, deserve to be treated nicely. I’m well now. Back to writing I go. I always find comfort in that.

^^^ my life.